Identity
crisis – who hasn't had one?
Here are
my qualifications:
Born in
one country, raised in another. Absent father syndrome, working
mother syndrome. An only child with a wide range of step- to
whole-siblings - and this is just off the top of my head.
In
my twenties I would travel around the western part of Europe, looking
for me in various places. I would position myself like a piece of
jigsaw and press into the
whichever community and hang there
for a bit. Weeks or months would go by until I'd realise that I am
not really a Bayern nor a Scot. More of a MadrileƱa than
a Londoner, but neither of those really.
The
closest I've come to is Paris, where I now choose to reside (for the
third time). I suspect it has nothing to do with Paris, France
itself, but that it is central in my chosen play field as I know
there are still unexplored territories that I need to press myself
against to see if it is the right fit. The perfect fit, no less.
Lately,
I've been playing less scavenger hunt and more house with my life,
but got reminded of this topic at a dinner party last night. There
was a great discussion about the need to know your origins. The spark
to this debate was the fact that Iceland does not have a sperm bank
and gets its sperm from Denmark and surely the next generation of
artificial inseminated children (the children being the consequence
of the insemination, of course) will most likely found an
organisation that seeks there origin. Not to mention that Iceland
will become Danish, again.
Regardless,
I realised I had not had that pity-party for the longest time, and
much to my surprise, I had hardly noticed the absence of my endless
quest of who I really am. And today I woke up with the thought that
birth is my mother, death is my father and I am life.